Decisions, Decisions…The OH/TX countdown…

Who to vote for?  That’s a decision being made by millions of Ohioans and Texans tonight.  For the nomination hangs in the balance of tomorrow’s primaries.

I get asked a LOT for my opinion.  And I have to say that while I have a lot of opinions, I have no defining one on whom to vote for.

Obama, Obama, he makes my heart go pitter patter when he speaks.  He whispers all those sweet nothings that idealists and Democrats love to hear.  He is a gifted speaker than can sweep the crowd under his spell.  And when he speaks, I too am under his spell.  However, when I wake the next morning, and reason begins to creep in, I have several questions.  Who is Tony Rezko to you?  And if he’s such a good friend, a known lobbyist and fundraiser, and someone you have no trouble doing business with, how can you say you are against the ‘status quo?’  Obama, darling, you make lots of great speeches and wonderful promises, you condemn when it comes to Iraq, yet what have you actually done to change it?  Speeches are nice, they’re lovely, but they are not action.  You ran for Senate on a promise of changing things.  You’ve been there three years–what have you done to change things? Show me these things, my dear, and I will happily give you my token, my vote.

Yet, Obama, he gives me hope.  I had long ago lost  hope that the masses would again care about politics.  That young adults would ever be swept along into making a difference, away from their apathy.  And what do I see?  Masses out for Obama.  Its simply stunning, its beautiful!  It makes me dream again!   But I’m not sure its enough.

Hillary, I don’t want to like you.  I’ve respected you for many years, since 1992 when I met you in a parking lot on a campaign stop.  There I was, an idealistic 20 year old, volunteering on my first campaign ever, and eagerly awaiting just a glimpse of you and Bill.  And what did you do?  You picked me out of a crowd, you talked with me, woman to woman, as if it was the most natural thing ever.  You treated me like a woman instead of a girl holding a sign, and that wasn’t something that happened too often in the political realm.  And since then, I’ve respected you.  But, your campaign annoys me.  I cannot explain it, but the assumptions made early on really annoyed me.

Still, when I put aside my annoyances and listen to you, when I listen to reason, I can’t help but be swayed by you.  You are warm and caring, yet tough.  You have amazingly great ideas.  And while others were just dreaming of making a change, you were out doing it.  I remember back to that meeting in 1992, when we talked about families and children, about health care and feminism.  And when your husband was elected, you took your opportunities to make a difference in those worlds.  I was proud that you were my first lady, even when I wasn’t so proud of our President.  I remember the trip to China to talk about Women’s rights.  I remember the attempt at Health Care.  I remember the trips around the world when you represented all the men and women of America, teaching the world who and what we were.  Yes, you may have “only” been first lady, but the action you took with that “only” job, is well, frankly impressive.

And since January, I’ve been impressed with your campaign.  You’ve been frank, you’ve been positive, you’ve been clear, and you’ve been direct.  You’ve shown that you will not be easily knocked down, or back, and that false “spin” or innuendos will not stand.  You have been the kind of woman who I want my daughter to know more about.

While you’ve been an insider, you’ve used every year of your “insider” status to change things for the better.  As I review who you are and what you’ve done, I can see that you’ve used your status to slowly change things from the inside out.

So on paper, Hillary is my choice.  But a vote is much more than a paper, intellectual decision, isn’t it?  A vote is something more, its my saying “I believe in you.”  And Hillary, as much as I agree with her and think she’d be an excellent choice, I find myself hoping its Obama.  Because there is a hope and an optimism that surrounds his campaign.  A hope and an optimism that I haven’t seen in my lifetime.  And I hope that it continues, regardless of the outcome.